I want him to touch me, but I shouldn't.

There's too much temptation in his touch. Too much temptation just being with him in the Hollow. In the 'real' he's incorporeal, and even when he makes it so I can feel him as I understand it he can't feel me. So the temptation then is only mine.
For the best, I suppose. It leaves me wondering how far my lust might carry me, and how far he would let me go.
I can feel it in him sometimes- that tension where he hesitates and pulls back. Why? Am I too broken? Too changed? Does he sense the monstrous things I've known struggling just underneath my skin? A doppelgänger of my lust, locked just as deep inside.
If I have my way neither one will ever see the light of day. As it should be.
It's for the best, and I think it's what he wants.